About The Book
I wrote a book! Well, almost. It's pretty much done, but I am finishing up some final touches as you can see in that image up there. Here is my letter to the reader, which will give you some insight into what this book is all about:
I’m going to call you friend because we’re about to get incredibly close. Inside the first few pages of this book you’ll be with me, at the lowest point of my life, when I was crippled on the bathroom floor, heart splattered beside me. It’s not my most glamorous of moments, but it’s human, and I have come to love all of what it means to be human.
Here’s the thing: I didn’t really want to write this story. I would have much rather told the tale of finding myself through a lens other than my broken heart. I didn’t have much choice, though. My soul pulled me to this story over and over again. Many times I resisted. Often, I resented the tears from reliving it.
But the truth is that writing this story has been a tremendous part of my healing. It has helped me discover that sometime, too early in life, I decided that I wanted to be loved more than I wanted to be me. And I decided that being me was not worth loving.
It has also reawakened early childhood memories, when I was interested in things no one else around me was interested in. I can see now that in those times my soul was showing me the way forward, the path to healing. It was saying, “Go. Explore. Discover who you are.”
It took me most of my 33 years to fully sit in the truth that I have been terrified to get to know who I really am. I didn’t trust that I could love all of those parts of me, especially the parts I had pushed away. I didn’t trust that the Universe would support me.
But now I know the truth: that there could never be anything I uncover that is not lovable.
Heartbreak pulls up all of our deepest fears, all of the beliefs we’ve tried our best to forget we’ve accepted as truth. In these pages you will find my journey through what looks like a broken heart but turns out to be a dark night of the soul. I didn’t know what I was signing up for when I committed to healing, but I knew it was time.
You might be feeling the same way now. If so, my greatest hope is that these words will spark in you the courage and desire to walk through your own pain and allow it to transform you.
No matter where you find yourself on this path, the truth is you are always loved, deserving of love, and worthy of being here.
May 11, 2017