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Breathwork Teacher & Desire Map Facilitator
 
 
 

ARE YOU READY TO DIG DEEP?

Nothing That Stays Hidden Ever Heals

 
 
 
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Hi, I'm Michelle.👋

I created Pushing Beauty as an expression of my soul, and it evolved into a place that I hope will inspire you to heal. Healing is an opportunity to become fully human. It's your chance to embrace all of who you are right now. No feelings are wrong, no pain is too deep.

Pushing Beauty is a place for you to learn about yourself, and I have a number of ways to help you do that. 

Ultimately, this is a place for you to find the tools to journey inward to becoming fully human, a nicer way of saying:

You're here to learn that it's OK to feel shitty and that you have the power to heal your life.

 

 
 
 

the bright side
of a broken heart

 
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A book for anyone who has loved & lost, fallen into the dark hole of depression, grieved deeply, or is ready to heal.

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The
Pushing Beauty
Podcast

 
 
 
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Hey there!
I'm Michelle, and I'm here to help you learn how to heal yourself.

You're not broken.
You're not too much.
You are enough.
You're lovable.
You deserve the life your soul desires.

My job is to support you in uncovering these truths for yourself. I'm here to empower you to release your pain and access the wisdom within you.

 
 
 


Love for Michelle

Testimonials

"I had been in therapy for 6 months before meeting Michelle and felt that my issues weren't really getting addressed. Immediately after we began working together I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. If you're thinking of working with Michelle, be ready for change to happen right away! Oh and it's always important to remember that not every day is going to be unicorns and rainbows. Just because you're on a new path, doesn't mean you're not going to have bad days. I learned that it's OK to be emotional and to actually embrace the negative feelings because "this too shall pass."  
—Salina

"I am a big fan of working on myself and tried every kind of healer and healing but breathwork is actually me being my own healer for myself. Michelle leads me through an off the charts playlist and makes me feel safe and comfortable to let it all out. The transformations have been mindblowing (I accomplished a goal I had for years) and I only started working with her a few months ago." 
—Christina

"I want to thank you so so much for holding space for me to feel safe in opening and feeling my feelings. I had berated myself earlier in the day for spending so much on one hour of time. But I can honestly say I can't believe how much healing you can accomplish in an hour! Breathwork has helped me to be more open in my life, to continue forging through my fears of being open/vulnerable/showing my true self - I am finding the benefit of this comfort in vulnerability, and that when I am open, others react so positively to it, and my life is more beautiful because of it. "

—Andrea

"I consider myself very lucky to have found Michelle. She is very compassionate and caring, I felt I was talking to a long-lost friend rather than a coach. I looked forward to my one on one sessions with her, she challenged me to be my best self. Being from India I was aware of different breathing techniques but I really enjoyed the breathwork taught by her, it is the easiest to do! I also did the Desire Mapping Workshop with her in a group setting and her guidance was crucial for me to connect with my innermost feelings and come up with a life plan that works for me.”" —Dhirja

"Michelle’s breathwork sessions are absolutely incredible. She creates a very open and safe environment that allowed me to feel vulnerable. She sensed that I was struggling to get through the first breathing series, and with her calm presence and intuitive cues, guided me through it. I’m so happy that she could tune into my energy and recognize this because I was left in a euphoric state yearning for more. I can’t wait to take another session with her and would recommend Michelle to anyone looking for an incredible guided meditation experience." —Alisa

"I came to Michelle after a devastating breakup. I was miserable and extremely anxious. Michelle helped me focus on what feelings my mind was trying to avoid. Her focus was on helping me learn to love myself. Through Breathwork and Michelle's guidance I was able to control my mind and find hope for my life again. Each week I felt better and better. This work is not a quick fix, but I took it very seriously and showed up for each session. This work has been so encouraging for my life." —Leo

"Although I am a deeply spiritual person who is open to new experiences, nothing quite prepared me for the breathwork session with Michelle. It was an intense, out of body experience that opened up a part of my soul that I never knew existed. With her beautiful guidance, she helped me start the healing process of forgiveness and letting go. Michelle she has this ability to create a space full of trust and love, allowing you to explore a deeper part of yourself without fear or reservation." —Michelle

"Thank you SO much, Michelle. You crafted the space so beautifully, and you reminded me of the great, innate power of the breath. With a heart-breaking start to the year, I had forgotten about it. I pivoted away from my pain by drowning my myself in my work and being in service, sometimes as a way to nestle away from the hurt. Thank you for allowing me to feel... That soundtrack though... seriously girl. Thank you." —Tara Bliss

"Before working with Michelle I felt confused and lost. Through working together I feel 100% more grounded. Breathwork grounded me like no other healing method I've worked with before. I have always struggled with making time for myself, and with Michelle's encouragement I began to carve out solid time for self care. I feel so much more connected to my body and am so aware of how much can be learned from the breath and the body. I highly recommend working with Michelle." —Julia

"Working with Michelle has brought me so much inner strength and stability. This is huge for me! Through her amazing listening skills, her intuitive understanding of people and her knowledge, she helped me discover how to access the resources which were in me already but that I could not see." —Marie-Eve

"Working with Michelle really helped me learned that it's okay to feel ALL my emotions but not to define myself by them. This has also helped me dig deeper into what it is I'm really feeling which has helped me continue to discover something new about myself. She really challenged me even if it was uncomfortable. I thought that doing Breathwork over Skype wasn't going to be as effective or that it was going to be weird but it was perfect! You can tell when someone really wants to see you succeed, and with Michelle you can see the passion in her work and how she's rooting for you. The fact that I can keep doing Breathwork and automatically see the effects is amazing. Working with Michelle felt like a different approach to tackling the issues we're all struggling with. She's just wonderful overall." —Alejandra

"I began working with Michelle when I was diagnosed with cancer. Working with her has helped me let go of fear and get centered. There's something about knowing she has my back that makes a huge difference. Practicing Breathwork consistently with Michelle has helped me destress, calm me, and has given me deep insights into myself." —Lindsay

 
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Dig Deeper is a self-study platform that gives you access to all of my workshops, teachings, and guides.

If you're ready to manage your emotions, release your pain, face the fears that are keeping you small, and open your heart I'd love to invite you to Dig Deeper.

 
 
 
 
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Instagram Inspiration

I’ve been getting some emails lately from heartbroken people who just need to know that it will get better. I remember what it feels like to be lost in that void of pain, so deep I really didn’t know if I’d ever find my way out. As I wrote my book, I had strong images of being lost and alone in the desert while I was depressed. I didn’t know how to get out. That fear is all encompassing. ⠀ If you’re in that place now, I want you to know you will find your way out. Things will get better. You can heal. ⠀ You are not alone. All of our hearts break. Songs, poetry, and literature have been shared from wounded hearts since the beginning. ⠀ My book, The Bright Side of a Broken Heart, is available via link in my profile if you need some additional support. ⠀ PS This is not a photo of me, it’s my very pregnant and beautiful friend. 😊
"Before I go to a restaurant, I obsessively check the restaurant’s website, and Google Images and Yelp, to see what kind of seating it has. Are the seats ultramodern and flimsy? Do they have arms, and if so what kind? Are there booths, and if so, does the table move or is it one of those tables welded between two benches? How long do I think I can sit in those chairs without screaming? I do this obsessive research because people tend to assume that everyone moves though the world the way they do. They never think of how I take up space differently than they do. ⠀ Picture it. A dinner, two couples, a trendy restaurant. As we are seated, I quickly realize I haven’t done my homework. The chairs are sturdy but narrow with ridge arms. I ask the hostess if we can sit at a booth, but even though the restaurant is empty, she says they are already all reserved. I want to cry but I can’t. I’m on a date. We are with friends. My companion knows what I am feeling but also knows I wouldn’t want any extra attention, knows I will endure the chair rather than make a scene. I am between a rock and a hard place. ⠀ We are seated and I perch myself on the edge of the seat. I have done this before. I will do it again. My thighs are very strong. I want to enjoy the meal, the lovely conversation with these treasured friends. I want to enjoy the cocktails and the gorgeous food being put before us, but all I can think about is the pain in my thighs and arms of the chair pinching my sides and how much longer I will have to pretend everything is fine. ⠀ When the meal is finally over, relief washes over me. When I stand, I am dizzy and nauseated and aching. ⠀ Even the happiest moments of my life are overshadowed by my body and how it doesn’t fit anywhere. ⠀ This is no way to live but this is how I live.” —Roxane Gay, Hunger ⠀ Read stories from people who live different experiences than you do. It’s important for the world. 📷 @jennsilverberg DESERT DETOX CLOSES THURSDAY AT MIDNIGHT I’m hosting my first workshop at my cabin in the high desert. It’s 4 hours long in the middle of the day so you can make the drive to and from LA if you love podcasts and cruisin or you can make a weekend of it by renting an Airbnb and heading into the park the next day. A couple spots left. Space is limited. Link in profile for deets. Every single challenge I encounter is an opportunity to love myself and to honor my inherent worth. I’m not perfect, I don’t pretend to be, and I’m going to continue to make mistakes. That’s called being human. If I can’t love myself along the way, I certainly can’t expect anyone else to. My job is to love, nurture, and forgive myself. I am always reminding my clients that they are doing a really great job. Most of the people I know try hard, have good intentions, and are willing to do better. It’s important to honor and see that in ourselves and in others too. . If you missed it, I published a new article about the 10 Ways My Life Has Changed From Breathwork. Link in profile. Little reminder from Maya Angelou to go kick ass today. 👊🏼 ⠀ Heading to the Bay tomorrow for a few days. I’m opening up space to see private clients in person in Berkeley on Monday & Tuesday. ⠀ Monday: 10am, 11:30am Tuesday: 10am ⠀ DM me if you’re interested. The first time I came to the desert was about six years ago with a group of friends. Two of them wandered off onto the massive property littered with boulders and didn’t come back until they had seen a rattlesnake. ⠀ I couldn’t understand why they would ever want to do such a thing. As my relationship to nature has changed I now feel inspired and delighted when I meet new creatures. A few days ago I was hiking in Joshua Tree National Park solo and had my first rattlesnake encounter. ⠀ I had a feeling I was going to see one that day. I was cautious about where I was walking and kept myself alert, like I always do when I’m in nature. I had no idea that she would be so large (seriously, massive) or that her rattle would stay in my nervous system for so long. ⠀ Because I was alone and without signal, I had the opportunity to feel into the intuitive messages from the snake instead of looking up animal medicine messages on google. ⠀ The rattle snake told me: Spirit is here. Spirit is here. Spirit is here. It showed me her power. Just in being Still. She showed me it’s safe to let everyone know: Hello, I’m here. I don’t need to push or use my will so much I can just be here in my power strong and clear. ⠀ A year ago, kundalini energy woke up my body I asked for slow and gentle And gracefully, she obliged. The emotion she moves out of me is not always gentle. Sometimes it erupts in violent waves of grief. Ancient grief that belongs to my soul but not this body. This body has inherited lifetimes of betrayal, torture, and grief. It is locked in my jaw my hips and my heart. This is my truth whether or not you believe it. ⠀ Hello, I’m here. Spirit is with me. Her energy slithers up my spine And If the right spot is pressed upon The spicket of sadness opens And I cleanse my soul with my tears. ⠀ I offer those broken pieces, left behind in the ethers of emptiness to go to the light. I am healing fragments of my soul I am honored I am privledged Hello, I am here. Last night I saw that I’ve been getting a lot of traffic to my article “I Lost Myself & I Don’t Know Where I Went.” It was the first public article I wrote about my heartbreak. Essentially, it was the beginning of the book I would write almost a year later. ⠀ I remember writing this while I was laying in bed. I remember the time of being so utterly heartbroken but also so aware of my experience. I felt lost, but I wasn’t numb. I was feeling it all and really ready to look at everything. ⠀ In many ways “I” might not have been ready, but my soul was. My time for avoiding and pretending had come to a close. ⠀ Even with this knowing, a part of me was waiting for someone to save me or for the feeling to pass. But this wasn’t a feeling that comes and goes. This was a reckoning. ⠀ The more you try to avoid your reckoning, the more you will suffer. The more you ignore the calling of your soul, the more discontent you will feel. Your soul is always communicating with you. Learn to listen. ⠀ If you’re interested in learning more about this whole healing thing you can click READ MY BOOK via the link in my profile. Thank you to everyone who has read and supported it. It’s been almost 5 years since my first Breathwork session, and I thought it would be fun to write about 10 of the ways it’s changed my life. ⠀ Of course, this path is more than just breathing and has changed me in so many more ways than just these ten. ⠀ Here are numbers 1 & 2 and many of you might be surprised by 3. ⠀ 1. I stopped hiding from the world—and myself. Hide-and-go-seek is only fun if someone actually finds you. When I was a teen I decided to disappear from everyone—myself included. When I began my Breathwork practice in my late twenties, I no longer had the option of hiding from the truth. ⠀ If you’re willing to let go enough, Breathwork will help your mind quiet down and give you access to your body. In my body I found a whole lotta pain from all the times I had betrayed and abandoned myself. I also found the wisdom of my soul, and it was from this place I knew it was safe to stop hiding. ⠀ 2. I learned to love myself. Breathwork is moving up the popularity line in the wellness world these days, but back when I began practicing it was tough to find an article online let alone a practitioner. ⠀ No one ever told me I could learn to love myself through Breathwork—but I did. ⠀ The term self-love was never uttered from the first healer I worked with, but I learned the great lesson naturally through the work. Breathwork connected me to the truth that I was lovable just as I was. It helped me see that nothing about me needed to change in order for me to love myself. ⠀ Link in profile to read the rest. ⠀ Thanks for the snap @mattdavella BREATHWORK + THE DESIRE MAP IN BERKELEY SUNDAY For any person who has been craving some inner exploration and maybe even some big life shifts. We’ll be spending the day getting clear on how you REALLY wanna feel in your life. What’s working and not working in your life? What do you want more of? How do you really want to feel in your career, love life, and spiritual practice? ⠀ We’ll be using my all time favorite tool, Breathwork, to get out of the mind and connect you to your intuition. ⠀ This is a day long workshop at a private home in Berkeley, CA. All are welcome. No experience necessary. ⠀ REGISTRATION CLOSES THURSDAY AT MIDNIGHT. ⠀ Link in profile for more details and to register. Tag a friend who lives in the area 📷 @nekarae_fineartimagery Road trip ready. Heading back to the 🌵 today. See ya in a few weeks, LA! PS Available for rent a few weeks in May. Follow @foxandfeathercabin for announcement. I didn’t write this book for you. I wrote it because I have always written as a way to process my emotions. Writing is healing. This booked helped me heal during a very dark time for me. ⠀ I dedicated many weekends to crying (um...I mean writing) in my kitchen. I kept going even when I was sick of it. I went into the places I didn’t want to go, pulled out the truth, and loved all the parts that felt splintered with pain. ⠀ I let myself end the story. I wrapped it up, bow not included, and sent it out until the world. I wrote it for me, but I still shared it with you. ⠀ What I have learned through sharing my stories over these past many years is that our stories live on. The things I’ve learned about heartbreak, grief, healing, self-love, and emotional pain are lessons that now live on through my book and my stories—my work. ⠀ The work we do on ourselves is always in service to others but also to something even bigger. I didn’t write this book for you. I wrote it because I had to. I wrote it because my soul didn’t give me another choice. And I hope you’ll read it if it calls to you because there is something bigger than me that has woven its way through those pages. ⠀ The Bright Side of a Broken Heart available via link in my profile. The big emotions that feel challenging to be with (like sadness and anger) are the really important ones to learn to feel. We’ve been taught they are “bad” or that there is something wrong if we feel them. . When I was a kid I was punished for expressing anger and taught my sadness meant I had a problem I needed to figure out. Only when I started my healing journey did I begin to see that my feelings weren’t that big a deal. I don’t mean they weren’t important. Our feelings are sacred. They are here to teach us something about ourselves. But I discovered that there was nothing wrong with me for feeling deep and big. . Through that recognition I felt more capable of feeling them. Talk therapy can be great. I’m a fan of reflection absolutely. But you can talk all you want—you still have to feel it to heal it. DESERT DETOX: APRIL 21st As soon as I stepped onto this land I heard the words Desert Detox, and I'm thrilled to welcome you to my first workshop in Wonder Valley on Trusting The Universe. ⠀ We'll be working with two main themes within trust ⠀ 1. Simplifying to Hear Your Soul 2. Manifesting Your Dreams ⠀ As always, we'll be doing some Breathwork and will also ask the land to help support us in healing. ⠀ Space is limited, and we are already halfway to capacity (get on my mailing list for future first announcements). Link in profile for more details. Somethings will work out and some won’t. Things will turn out differently than you expected. People will love you and maybe a couple will judge you, hurt you, or even be mean to you. You will come up against the resistance within you. You will come up against the resistance from the world. ⠀ Through it all there is one constant: you. You are with you all the time. Loving who you aren’t isn’t a luxury. It’s a necessity. Without it life is gonna feel a whole lot lonelier, you’re gonna struggle harder, and suffer more. ⠀ If you’re ready to Dig Deeper click the link in my profile to learn more about my self-study healing hub that closes this Friday. BREATHWORK + THE DESIRE MAP IN THE BAY AREA In less than two weeks I’ll be driving up to Berkeley and hosting my first Breathwork + Desire Map Workshop. I don’t know many people in the area so if you have a friend who would be interested feel free to tag them below. It’s going to be a powerful workshop at my friend’s beautiful home (swipe to see photos 👉🏼). ⠀ If you’re not familiar, here’s a quick breakdown of what we’ll be doing: ⠀ The Desire Map: Do you know how you want to feel? Like, REALLY know. I’m talking soul level knowing. That’s what you’re going to discover. ⠀ Breathwork: THE tool for leaving your mind behind and accessing your feelings—including all those bottled up emotions that you haven’t been willing to face. You’ll get to feel and release them which will help you connect to your soul and intuition. ⠀ Details Sunday, April 15th 10am-6pm Light lunch, snacks, and Desire Map book included. Link in my profile for full details. ⠀ Tag a friend in the Bay Area! Would love to see you! ⠀ First and last 📷 @nekarae_fineartimagery Monday at midnight is the last day to get the Releasing Self-Judgment workshop. We all have reasons we feel guilty or ashamed. We all place unnecessary judgments on ourselves. We waste A LOT of energy in our heads judging ourselves. If you’re ready to work through and clear out, head over to the Link in my profile to get access. Hey LA! 👋🏼 I’ll be back teaching Breathwork at @onedowndog in Silverlake on Wednesday (4/4) at 8pm. Class tends to sell out so get your tickets in advance if you want to join us. . I also have one spot left for a private Breathwork session at @yogalastudios on Sunday, April 8th from 4:30-5:15. DM me to book. . If you live elsewhere feel free to contact me for virtual sessions. You are allowed to feel sad. What’s more is that you can handle your sadness. It’s not going to eat you alive. It’s not going to last forever. It’s showing up to teach you something about yourself. ⠀ My sadness taught me that I love really big (and that’s beautiful—I won’t ever change that!). It taught me that I didn’t believe I was worthy of the love I wanted. It taught me that I’m really sensitive (and there’s nothing wrong with that). ⠀ When I was willing to honor my sadness and listen to what it was saying it taught me about living myself and showed me all the times I didn’t. ⠀ It might feel big and unbearable, but you can handle it. If you need support or a reminder that you’re not alone click the MY BOOK link in my profile. There are parts of ourselves we have pushed away. Parts we decided to believe weren’t lovable, were too much, were not enough, were annoying/bad/ugly. ⠀ Those parts need to be reclaimed. There is no healing with them in the dark. There is no wholeness with them shamed in a corner. ⠀ If you feel lost in your life you need to reclaim your dark. ⠀ If you feel uncomfortable in your skin you need to reclaim the parts of yourself you’re trying to hide. ⠀ If you feel unworthy you need to claim your worth, standing with your shadow. ⠀ If you feel unlovable you need to pull out all the parts you believe are unlovable and love them anyway. ⠀ If you feel like you don’t belong you need to own the parts you’ve disowned. ⠀ You don’t have to, of course. You can keep on keeping on. You can feel icky and uncomfortable. You can fall into depression deeper or in rhythm. You can let anxiety keep you stuck. ⠀ Or you can face all the parts of yourself you chose—when you didn’t know any better—to abandon. You can forgive yourself for that betrayal. You can breathe love into your cells and release the beliefs creating so much pain. ⠀ You choose. ⠀ FOR YOUR SUPPORT My digital workshop Releasing Self-Judgment is available for purchase until April 2nd in the link in my profile. You can also access it via my membership platform Dig Deeper. Both links in my profile.